“A FAREWELL TO THE NUNNERY”
By Erlinda Mirafuentes-Dela Cruz
A Former Catholic Nun
I WAS BORN and baptized into
the Catholic Church. My grandmother taught me how to pray the Angelus and the
rosary daily. My early childhood was replete with different sizes of
statues of all saints elaborately dressed like medieval beings and arranged on
the altar where we knelt before them as we recited long and repetitious prayers
in their honor. My mother, Dominga Calderon, taught me to have a personal
devotion to all souls in Purgatory. I became a prayer leader of the novena for
the dead especially during All Souls’ Day in the cemetery. I devoutly observed
different practices such as fasting and abstinence during holy week and the
nine-day novena in preparation for the feast days of the honored patron.
Many years had passed and my
spiritual knowledge was deeply rooted in the catechism. I observed diligently
the reception of the sacraments, particularly Holy Communion, confession, and
other para-liturgical services. Through the help of my spiritual confessor I
became a catechist when I was a senior in high school. My heart was filled with
so much love and burning zeal to spread the glad tidings by teaching the
catechism in public schools. As a result of this missionary commitment, I
decided to enter the convent in order to serve God in a very special way as a
nun.
First, I joined the Religious of
the Virgin Mary (RVM) congregation in the year 1979. I stayed with this
congregation until 1987. Then from 1988 to 1994, I joined the Sisters for
Christian Community (SFCC), an international congregation. I became a
perpetually professed Sister but everything was in vain.
I sought God’s kingdom for 14
years as a nun but I felt there was a vacuum deep in my soul. I started to
doubt my religious vocation as a nun. I got tired of reciting and chanting long
prayers. I felt a complete dryness in all spiritual exercises. I kept on hoping
that someday I may be able to overcome this inner torment. Then one day, as I
was about to leave the country to go on another missionary journey, I met Aldy
Perez Dela Cruz, an active member of the Church Of Christ (Iglesia Ni Cristo).
In one of our sharings, he graciously invited me to observe the way the Iglesia
Ni Cristo worships God. Full
of biases and inhibitions, I hesitated for about three times. I refused his
invitation because I thought then that the Iglesia Ni Cristo was “Iglesia Ni
Manalo.” Furthermore, the thought was imprinted in my memory that changing a
religion is committing a mortal sin and my soul will be damned in hell. I was
scared.
Suddenly, I remembered the thrust
of Ecumenism as promulgated by the Vatican Council II. Inspired by this, I
curiously observed the Iglesia Ni Cristo worship service at Putatan Chapel,
Muntinlupa City. To my great surprise, I was deeply touched by the hymn sung by
the choir. I couldn’t help but join the brethren in crying throughout the
hymn-singing. More so, I was overwhelmed by the impact of the preaching of the
minister about the relationship of parents and children.
After few weeks I felt a craving,
hungering and thirsting for another worship service. I attended the worship
services several times, and then I realized that the true light was gradually
shining in me. I finally decided to listen to the doctrines of the Iglesia
Ni Cristo. The lessons that dealt with the sign of the cross were the
focal points of my conversion. I was so terrified when I learned the true
meaning of the sign of the cross on the forehead. I thank God for the gift of
Brother Felix Y. Manalo, the messenger of God in these last days. I felt
extraordinary gifts from God right after studying the first ten doctrinal
lessons.
At last, I felt deep within my
heart that I found His kingdom in the Iglesia Ni Cristo. Truly inspired by
His light and love, I immediately wrote a letter to the SFCC Sisters in the
USA, requesting them to dispense me from my vows of poverty, chastity, and
obedience. I was officially dispensed from my vows on April 10, 1994.
I joyfully continued studying the
remaining lessons until April 30, 1994. For more than six months I was tested
on how faithful I was in attending the worship services. Most of the time I
attended the worship service in Dagupan City.
I observed that the more I
attended the worship services, the clearer my faith and conviction became that
the Iglesia Ni Cristo is the answer to my spiritual dryness when I
was inside the convent. The solemnity and orderliness of the (Iglesia Ni Cristo)
worship services, and the teaching that is purely taken from the verses of the
Bible, were totally absent from the Masses I heard in the convent. I would
experience the power of God and His mighty blessings whenever the (Iglesia Ni
Cristo) ministers and deacons lead the prayer. I had never felt these
extraordinary graces when I attended Masses or any liturgical services when I
was a nun.
Finally, on October 1, 1994, I
was baptized into the only true Church, the Iglesia Ni Cristo. This
is the most unforgettable date in my life.
“But
seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be
given to you as well.”(Mt. 6:33, NIV).
This passage in the Scriptures is
truly fulfilled in my life now that I am a member of the Iglesia Ni Cristo.
I found His kingdom in this Church. I pray to God that He enlighten the minds
and touch the hearts of all religious nuns and priests, that as they see the
kingdom of God in their respective convents, they may be open to the promptings
of the Holy Spirit to listen to the teachings of the Iglesia Ni Cristo.
May they become more receptive to its doctrines that will lead them to true
happiness, freedom and peace. May they become authentic followers of Christ
through the teachings of the Scriptures, the only source of faith that will
lead them to salvation and to become true heirs of the new heaven and the new
earth.
For all my brothers, sisters,
relatives, and friends, I pray to God that, through the ministers and members
of the Iglesia Ni Cristo here in the Philippines and abroad, they be
graciously called into the true Church Of Christ and be saved on the Last Day.
Source: God’s Message, November-December
1996, pp.8-9.
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